Thursday, March 6, 2008
Scooter you got to go! So I did. I was 19 years old with no where to go. My parents had moved to Florida, both my brothers were off in collage and I was alone. Damn, it was cold and I swear it seemed to have rained every night! Literally! Some nights it was so bad that I couldn't feel my hands and feet for hours. Soaked from head to toe but I have to keep moving. I had to learn how to sleep standing up because that’s how I slept most nights. It was the longest 3 months I had ever had in my life but I mad it through. You see, I was staying with my girlfriend and her parents when I got her pregnant. She was only 17 and Moms wasn’t about to let her have a baby. So, of course I had to get out of the house. Scooter, you got to go! So I did. I walked for miles with very little sleep and very little to eat. I showered at a friend’s house while his parents were at work and when possible I’d get a few hours sleep then back to the streets. You’re a man now I kept telling myself, you’re a man now! When did you realize you were a man or a woman for that matter? Let’s share experiences and we’ll all see that we’re not all that different. We all have ups and downs; it’s how you deal with the tough situations that determine what kind of man or woman you are. That’s just a little something to break the ice. I’d love to hear your story. Please feel free to talk to me, I’d love to listen.
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Despite what others may think, there is a design to my madness. No, I'm not crazy or confused! I don't look for possibilities or what could be. I like knowing instead of believing or hoping. I have friends and family in all walks of life, good and bad. If I would give my last dollar for one friend in need, then why shouldn't I give my life for another friend in need. The greatest sacrifice is my own life! My life has great purpose with an intricate design. I don't make decisions without first considering my options and consequences, trust me! There IS a design to my madness.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
I am now ready for the end of what I thought would be an eternity. It seems like just moments ago I got a chance to see Heaven. I saw a future more beautiful than I had ever imagined. The morning sun and midnight moon shines the same beautiful light to each and every day. I was in Love. Then, reality set in. I now realize that the price to see Heaven, is to live in hell.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
We must get out the darkness. I look toward the light but at times it's too dim to follow. I have my own light that shines as bright as the sun, but one can not follow his own light. My light shine for others to find their way out of the darkness, and in return gives them to shine for others. I'll keep working until my job is done. No pain is too great for me to bare and no hole is too deep for me to climb out of. The strength in my soul is unmatched. I am one with the Earth and all life that it feeds. I am Gods image in the form of man with great destiny.
Why do I feel like I must give all of myself and accept less than all from others? My understanding haunts me daily. It doesn't allow me to be selfish and uncaring. It forces me to love no matter what, even when I'm not loved back. We wait for the day someone will look us in the eyes and tell me the 100% truth. But little do we know, the truth will tell itself. If what you say is not Worth the honesty that I deserve, then it's not worth saying. We must learn to be honest with ourselves before we can honest with others. How good of friend am I if you can't tell me the truth?